Dainty Diva
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
A terrible sem of 2.66 pushed me down the "building" and left me hanging there. I'm trying my best to struggle to get myself back to concrete ground, at least to keep myself "alive". From a honors degree to a bach... This is painful..
extracted 2 premolar yesterday. The dentist numbed my lips and my gums.. well welll... I can't drink with numbed lips. I couldn't control my lips and can't even feel water dripping down from my mouth. =_= I can't imagine myself living with numbed lips for like 1 month plus. Imagine.... I will be drinking like a baby, or rather worse than baby, at least a baby could suck from the milk bottle. I can't suck for nuts without my lower lips.
I noe tough time ahead.. and the extraction perhaps is the worse stuff in the braces treatment. Two more wisdom teeth to go. I'm tired of those bleeding and porridge "feast". Thanx to all these stuff. I've lost at least 3 kg and I'm now 44kg. Arggh... buffet after i got used to my braces.
I've lost my passion for food. Life seems so meaningless now.
* i'm praying that the surgeons leave my nerves alone, i can't imagine living with numbness on my lower lips. *
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Wrote a sentence, then i pressed the "delete" button. Something i really wanted to say, but it's also sth that i dunno how to put it across. It's okie. Juz let it be..
I wish her all the best.
Friday, February 23, 2007
Finally when i got my hongbao money and thinking that life would be easier, there comes driving lessons which are extremely expensive. Haiz.. this is really what it means
: By the time you can make ends meet, they move the ends.
This will take forever for me to make ends meet. =_=
Thursday, February 22, 2007
yes yes yes....i put on that ring round my tooth and monday i goin for my extraction... hahaa.. and by next friday, i will be known as the braces girl!!
Consulted one of the profs regarding my surgery. He said that he would recommend me to go for the lower jaw surgery only as he dun wan to further reduce my facial length. hahaa.. GOOD NEWS for me!!! i'm really freak out by the upper jaw surgery. =_=""
Anyway..everything has to wait till a year later to finalize. =) yeah... i wan my surgery fastttt...
New year is over, time to go back to my assignments. i dun understand why professors wan typed out hardcopy for those homework assignments.. it doesn't make sense to me, if they wan hardcopy, i can jolly well write for them. It is a chore to type it out. Okie.. less complaints, more work. =_=
Gonna have my formal dining assessment tomolo.. so freakish lahz.. sitting there for over 2 hours to have a 3 course meal. Profs would be looking at how i eat, how I behave and how I talk to assess me.. Usually, i would juz gobble my food down like a lion and clear my plate within 10 mins. After putting on my braces, i think i should be able to spend more time with my food, therefore hoping that would drag to 1 hour.. haha..
Meeeting yuling and hanwei tomolo!!! Shall take more photos tomolo.. =)
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
thanx to muthu's slimming recipe, i guess i've lost at least 2 kg AND I'm still running to the toilet..
good job muthu =_=""
weird... my whole family is chilli king... al my cousins got sore throat while i kept running to the toilet.. well well.. I'm lousy lahz... =_= i hate indian curry...
hmm... today had a big big family gathering.. but it wasn't as happening as in the past. maybe becoz of the Indian food (I don't believe they actually got muthu's curry caterer) or the limited space at my auntie place.. well.. doesn't really matter hahaa.. I realized sth today.. I truly love kids, but i seriously hope that they do come with a controller, for me to mute them when they shout and cry, to pause them when they start running ard like monkeys. haha.. on the whole, it's really scary to see my nephews and nieces growing up, it reminds me that i'm getting older. haha.. Anyway, they are adorable!! =)
After i got home, my dear louis asked if i wanted to go over to his relative house with him.. hmm.. i went and luckily i din throw his face. Went over to his (mother side) ah ma house first, where i sat down and talked to his grandma, while he is playing MJ with his granddad. After which we went to his dad side. =) Gambled a bit then we went home. Nice and friendly grandparents he have. *envy*
I really wonder how would things be like when my grandparents were still rounds, perhaps i would get to see everyone in the family. The grandparents in the family are alwayz the one who bring everyone together on chinese new year. =)
feeling really sleeepy... back to my bed...
=_=
Monday, February 19, 2007
Happy New year to all!!!!
The first day of the chinese new year has past and i really enjoy spending time with them. We could juz sit in front of the tv, making jokes out of everything that happen and we would all luff. It's heart warming.. and i love big family!! As usual, i went to my maternal relatives on the first day and would go to my dad's side tomolo or rather, today. After reaching my auntie's house, we set off to the shifu place. I dunno what i should call it, it's not a temple, neither a house. Anyway, the shifu warned me seriously after reading my palm and my buddha pendant. He has been repeating this year after year, that is warning me not to attend funerals or anything associated with it. yah yah yah.. i got it, my mum got it, and the shifu added, "try your best to avoid, you should noe how bad is your body after attending such events." i noeee... my mum seriously warned me against such stuff. haiz.. Shifu also tell me to be exceptionally careful in whatever i do, that should be able to reduce the damage. =_="" scary...
Sometimes, We really have to believe in all these... esp huiling's shifu.Huiling once told me to stay away from all those beaches and sea, as there would be another tsunami attack. Indeed, the tsunami was back. therefore, this time, i heed huiling advice, i din wear green clothes for the first day, but i really got no other clothes to wear tomolo.. haha.. therefore.. ya.. green tube.. *grinz* Hmm.. was really tired after running from places to places. We went from amk to geylang, to woodlands, back to amk for dinner and then to telok blangah. tiring..
Msged adrian's mum and sis to wish them happy new year as sophia msged me the day before, and i really feel i should msg his mum. Perhaps is juz my way of expressing my respect for her, she really dote on me very much during the times when we were together. well.. she's a real friendly lady and i can say, his family is really friendly. =)
Tomolo would be a tough day, to recall my relatives' names. my dad's family is tooooo big.. i really can't even remember my cousins' name, let alone my nieces and nephews. Anyway, i feel it's good to catch up with them again.
ohhh.. i really wan to get those photos taken during the reunion i had with the year 1 friends. I really hate pestering ppl for stuff hahaa.. perhaps that;s way i'm usually the one who would bring camera. I like to take photos.. and i should feel relieved for having that passion. At least, i'm left with many beautiful pictures of her and us, or rather them. =)
Friday, February 16, 2007
Yesterday had a great time with my year 1 class.. hahaha.... i really din expect wah wah to be one of the marathon food winner.. ahhaaa... he juz sat there kept eating and eating... it is amazing lahzz... hahaha..
There are so many ppl saying me and bren look VERY alike... even my bf says so.. haha.. There's this guy who was in louis's LTB group told louis that I'm in his management science class and he noe who i am. Then louis affirmed him that ya.. i taking Management science and is in his class. Well.. then that guy name daniel ponder a while and said "but there are two girls who look very alike in my class." then my dear louis said "ya.. then u got the right person." hahaaa...
That daniel actually believeed that we are twins when we told him so.. =_= hahaa.. I dun think we look DAT alike.. but many people, including bren's parents and grandma said that we look very alike.. hahaa..
here is one of the pic.. do we look alike? i dun think sooo...
DO we really loook alike? maybe the side view.. thats what ppl say.. ahahahaa..
Thursday, February 15, 2007
finally... i'm done with my 35% of my management science module. Din really noe how to do several questions but i guess is really good enough that i could manage to scribble some sensical stuff. Hope to get some marks out of there.
Phew... finally. i could take a rest and enjoy my chinese new year. TIme for some reunion dinner for my year 1 uni class.. i believe it would be real fun tonite. =)
I will update photos and more photos..hahaa...
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
My old friend jason is now a photographer.. haha.. he has many nice photos posted for competition.. take a loook and VOTE for his three photos!!!
http://www.corporate.mediacorp.sg/tvmobile/loveiseverywhere/gallery_vote.htm
his works are:
Best Picture: Destinies Entwined
Best Picture: Let them be Little
Best Picture: Good Bye
Although those photos are quite abstract, they truly reveal his feelings at that point of time. Great job jason. =) All the best~!!
now i noe what is the missing piece.. i really hope to go for a shopping spree to buy what i wanted without having to think abt how miserable will my next few weeks be if i spend that miserable sum of money. I juz wan to have the feeling of spending my hard earn money. It juz need some pampering which has been lacking in my life for almost 1 year. It is really miserable when u even have to think thrice when u wanted to get a new bag or even a new top. Buying something that exceeds 40 bucks seems a insignificant thing to ppl, but is a luxury to me.
Not able to purchase clothes that i like but i can only keep myself to those cheap buys. It really makes me feel like a leech, leeching on to survive. can I juz leave this bag of worries down for a while. It's too heavy and tiring.. It really makes me feel like going out to work immediately.
Monday, February 12, 2007
What a valentine's day... i've got this Management science quiz on thursday which is like 35% of that module.. =_=
heard from weilun that amkss alumni is goin to organize one reunion dinner for all ex amkss students.. sounds good.. but i got this make up class till late in the evening and weichuan has this test on saturday. I really dun get it what's wrong with those prof. They like to torture us with saturday and sunday tests.. crapp... Can they juz get a life? =_=
went chinatown after stuck at louis house for a long long time, i decided to get out of the bed to get some fresh air. Initially, wanted to buy some bak kua, who noes it was sold out. So, we walked for a while to look at some of the Chinese New Year stuff. After that we went back to the coffeshop near our school for supper. When we drove past our school, we saw many many many students sitting there studying.. Some in the student lounge, some in the GSR, some outside the pick & bite, some sitting on the benches. there is a common thing among them, that is they had no sign of packing up when it was already 11.30pm. Disgusting...
It is too disgusting to stay on, and my parents seem to be having financial difficulties in supporting my school fees. Since my results are like shit, i guess i should juz take 2 summer course, 5 modules each for the next two sem and finish my degree. I dun need to go for whatever exchange or whatever internship. Juz let me get out of this place fast and start working. My financial situation is so bad that i dun even have 50 bucks with me. Downright broke. I guess since i've no interest in studying anymore, i'm torturing myself by spending another 6 months. Why not juz end the misery fast?
SMU seems like a fun school to be in, but it is not. It seems like an enjoyable where students would play their hearts out, but it's not. In fact, students are slogging their hearts out by spending days and nights juz to finish the horrible amount of projects assigned. It is not what it seems to be. That's the power of marketing, which helps create the illusion. I goin to get out of this school asap.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Woke up early in the morning and found myself having fever. So, i went to see a doctor before goin for my braces consultation. In the braces consultation, i was told that i need two jaw surgery, one for my upper jaw and the other for my lower jaw. =_="" cold sweat... haiz.. i really thought of goin for the lower jaw surgery only.. now it seems like i need to go for both.
TOday, dr low put in the rubber in my teeth to make space for the braces. this is really irritating... It feels so weird.. and someone said sth "good mah, you can take it out to use in times of need" very thank you chris for ur comforting words.. =_=
I goin to put on partial braces on the 23rd feb while waiting for the oral surgeons to approve my jaw surgery part. I guess i will need to wear braces for 1.5 years before going for the operation and then, another 6 months for the finishing. Haiz.. hope things turn out well.. i can speak properly and will look the same or better. i am not doin it to look better, but i'm doin it to correct my speech deficiency.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
yes yes yes... I'm a person with low immunity. True enough, i'm down with sore throat and cough.. all thanx to my mum who brought this virus into the family. =_= With the lack of sleep and the virus attack, i'm now stuck with a sore throat and a deep voice. I should be happy that this sore throat came after my interview grading assessment on Monday. I seriously need to see a doc before this thing drags till Vday, or even Chinese New year. Anyway, i would need to see a doc either tomolo or the day next to get an MC for not being able to attend my thursday morning class. I really hope i can get the stupid braces fix and i can't wait for the operation to be done. I hate it when my pronunciation screws up as though my tongue is protesting for the lack of space to work with.
After attending my Finishing touch module, I got to learn sth: A career is a path that you enjoy walking. I asked myself, do i really enjoy marketing stuff? I guess i am more interested in organizing events, which is part of marketing but not solely marketing. TIme for me to really think thru if i should declare corporate communication as my second major. It would be a difficult path to take, but it is sth that is impt and essential in the business world. Is the learning process that is important, or the GPA? No matter what bullshit ppl say about education is a journey and shouldn't be a destination, what we learn in the process is much more impt than the GPA or grades. BULLSHIT. Everything in the school look at GPA as the first criteria to determine if u are smart, average, or dumb. Everything starting from exchange program to internship, they will firrst look at the GPA. Stop all those bullshit that it is the learning process that counts. In fact, the school is juz like the working world, it condone no mistake. Try getting a D for one module, all i can say is god bless you.
Is it the world that is practical or was it us who make the world to be so practical.. Now, it doesn't matter anymore as the world now is where the fittest survive.
Monday, February 05, 2007
Sometimes i wonder, where has my confidence gone to?
I tot i would see no one.. But i saw joyce.. I feel like hiding away from her.. I feel like leaving what i've got for her and then leave. I noe it's not appropriate for me to do so, and i find no reason for running away from her... I dunno why.. i was nervous when i see her, i din noe what to say, what to ask, what to chat about.. Because of this, i asked her twice, "you got no tuition today arh" when i obviously remembered what she answered me for the first time. Dumb me. I'm never good at maintaining conversation with ppl...
Sometimes i wonder, how would things be when i din make that call, din ask what happen.. Perhaps, the ending would still be the same.. No point dwelling on this when things had already happened... TIme for me to get back to my work and prepare for what has to come tomorrow.. I'm trying to clear one after another, i believe shit work will end sooner or later..
Saturday, February 03, 2007
I guess not today.. i dun think i will be there today my ger.. I juz din wan to meet so many of your friends.. YOu noe i will visit u.. I promise..
CAme back from my secondary 4 gathering.. they are mostly studying in NTU and NUS , specializing in all different faculty, from science to arts to engineering. There are some of them who are working towards being a teacher.. =)
It seems like we are still able to talk and luff juz like before. Nothing has changed, not us, not our hearts. We had a wonderful time by justing sitting down and catching up. I really hope that we can have more of such chances. =)
3rd feb, the birthday of the two cutie pies, i really hope they will stay healthy, cheerful, and most importantly slim... =_=
enough of the crap.. time to get back to work..
Thursday, February 01, 2007
I've been awake for more than 24 hours and i can feel my head is getting heavier and heavier with each passing minute. This is not good.. i guess i need 2 to 3 hours of sleep before i can continue studying and finishing up the report. It's no good.. i dun like this..
Huiling msged me a few hours back to see if she can meet me for lunch, but i was caught up with my project work. Shall see u tomolo nite k? lets have some chill out like Indochine or sth.. i seriously need to destress and retail therapy is out of questions. =|
I shall go out to my work... i need sometime to myself.. i want to go sentosa, i wan to go sun tanning. =|
i juz wan sufficient hours of sleeeep... I've got a whole day class tomolo and a whole day class cum test cum presentation on friday.. kill me please.. this is hell...
