Dainty Diva
Friday, October 28, 2005
I flunked the english exemption test.. arGh.. this makes me joining the happy family which comprise of , Patrick, daniel, eugene, Jacq, terrance... and so on.. haha.. we will be spending our first week of our hols together... haha.. forming our happy family..
I'm praying hard.. that the lesson will end before 4pm each day... if not how i attend sandra's wedding dinner!!! luckily sandra's chinese wedding is on the 3rd.. if not.. i wun be able to go le lahz... hehee... Anyway... I have not taken anything since morning.. I'm very hungry now le lahz...
I fianlly put on my contact lens... took a look at my eyes... eErR Xin.. thats all i can sae.. As for my presentation on wednesdae... i decided to market the toothpaste, sensodyne... hehee...
Todae is our anniversary.. but i'm unhappy...
Can my dear santus claus drop me a gift for christmas? i wanted nothing but 1 double eyelid... coz I look simply digusting with only one double eyelid and the eye look so odd.. can i juz have the double eyelid without pain and blood.. if the god can't give me the double eyelid i wanted, then u let my the only double eyelid i have to go awayz... i hate it.. coz it make me look ugly.. it make me look weird...
If that is all not the case... i dun mind having another of that pus thingy under my right eyelid.. let me have it removed... with a scar.. which will give me what i wan.. a double eyelid.. i love beauty, I'm the one whom ppl are talking abt... give up my life, for the beauty... i juz wan my double eyelid...
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Had 2 of my test... and i really dun believe that at the end the test paper.. my prof asked me how was the paper... and i replied.. " i din expect those kuku questions to come out" what am i talking abt?!!! how can i sae that to my prof... oh my god.. he looked quite shocked... but i really hope he dun mark me down... i'm scared... my mind was so blank.. I'm so stoned... and i went home to sleep after the dinner...
My stats... Dying i gues.. din really put in effort to go study and do it.. i was about to fall asleep when i was doin the paper... Oh gosh... i've got more to come... presentation, projects... oh shit... when will all these end...
Friday, October 21, 2005
oh no... the blogger is not compatible with the mac... oh gosh.. i can't see those icons such as the bold and italic.... anyway.. went to the sch to print those notes... then there is the 3 for $10 came in.. oh gosh.. she was so happy when she saw me.. smiling from ear to ear. but my brain told me.. i need to run.. my heart told me.. i'm unlucky... anyway... before i can run.. she tried to take advantage of me. she wanted me to lend her those notes i've printed out,, i dun mind lending her all those things.. but dun give me the lame excuses that her deskjet ink ex lahz... or she lazy to print.. and she even somehow implied that i'm stupid to print in sch coz she feels that it's ex to print in sch...
So the conclusion is that.. it is cheaper and easier to photocopy from me lahz... haiz... i ran before she can do anything from me... I've got 2 tests next week.. it's really killing me.. i really hate to eat books lahz... got any other way of studying or not.. such as scanning.. haha... much easier rite...
Argh.. i hate the studious me.. coz the studious me.. is not ME....
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Had my 50% written comms test todae.. it was a piece of shit... i'm praying real hard to get good grades for the paper... if not.. i will be in deep shit... i noe i wun do real well coz i couldn't finish the papers in time..
During the break, i had my beloved macdonalds.. hehe.. nice nice... but it will be even nicer if adrian was with me.. but he's alwayz not there when i need him.. can't even talk to me when I need him.. used to be NS.. and now School... next time.. it will be work... so he will never be free to tok to me.. all these are juz excuses isn't it?
Went to look at my Financial Accounting test paper.. I've drowned myself in the sea of MCQ.. got killed in there... I juz hate myself for making so many mistakes.. People always like MCQ.. but i hate them... i can't differentiate between two close ans... I've got 7 marks deducted from there... Stupid me..
Then to the statistics... at least that one i got better... 8/10.. haiz.. but throughout the review lesson... i juz dun understand.. oh god... i've got two tests next week... one on tuesdae.. the other on wed... can someone juz help me out.... i'm dying...
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
i've got a 50% test tomolo... oh hell... i really tot it's a 25% instead of 50%. Anyway.. i'm really having a hard time trying to get use to the ibook.. And tomolo... I will need to write persuasive writing... oh man.. juz 2 lessons... and 2 tests that cover 50% of the module... isn't that ridiculous... Hate it..
i really dunno how am i goin to survive thru tomolo... i mean plenty of luck... plenty of them.. haiz...
Monday, October 17, 2005
Juz measured the bloody laptop bag and i realised it is a 14-inch one... i can even fit my toshiba laptop in... what the hell... The day when i went into the shop.. i asked them if it is a 12inch one.. and they told me yes... now it doesn't fit and does not allow me to get my refund... and when i tried to tell him how angry i am... he doesn't listen... he juz simple thinks that i'm unreasonable.
When i'm trying to tell him how i feel... he often use the logical judgement on what i've said... i dun need anything.. i juz need a lending ear.. to let me say out whatever unhappiness i have... is it so difficult... Of course a 12-inch laptop can fit into the 14-inch bag.. i noe it can.. but why should i have a bag which is so much bigger that my laptop can slip ard. It defeats the purpose of me having a laptop case as the protection isn't it.
Stop telling me how unreasonable i am even before i can put my thinking across. If u dun wish to listen to my grumbling... u can jolly well tell me u got sth else to do. I hate it when i'm so sad and felt decieved.. and u keep reminding me how unreasonable i am.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
I've got my ibook todae.. nice nice ibook... i love it... hehe... but i dunno how to use it...
Hmm.. went to sch for my LTB project... but din do much things... then waited for shirley james to get my assignment back... Oh man.. i've got a D... wah kaoz... demoralizing... anyway... will need to work hard as i've a test on that on wednesdae.. i better score well.. i dun wan a c or d.. not even a b-....
Anyway... got to SSDC after schoolwork.. and shit... i failed the eye test thingy.. and i can't get the PDL... anyway.. the staff there are rude.. i will lodge a complain against them... hate them to the core.. It was then raining cats and dogs.. i felt so bad for having adrian to pick me up even when he's sick... I'm Sorry...
Had some Hor fun for dinner.. not very nice. hmm... talking abt food... i'm hungry now. Now i shall start to learn how to go abt using my ibook... it look fantastic.. but .. i really dunno how to use it.. so different..
Thursday, October 13, 2005
We are both down with flu....
He is down with flu... stubborn old fool who refuses to go home or to see a doc... Wonder how he is now... must be having fever... He alwayz has this problem of getting flu, cough and fever together.. whenever he has a fever.. it means high fever..
I dunno what else to do.. I really hope he can juz get home... perhaps when he is home.. I will feel relieve that, at least he is in good hands, his mother will take care of him. But he is juz so stubborn...
....Stubbon Old Fool....
Oh ya.. i'm having my holidays now... but.. i've goin back to sch for kuku reasons... and nevermind.. the prof put areoplane... I'm goin to stay at home.. smell my bed.. sleep on my bed.. I'm goin back to sch tomolo again for project meeting... endless of project meetings... a few more coming up...
I supposed to be in sch at 930am to take my exemption test todae... but who cares... with my lousy and three-feet cat english... whether i take or not, i'll still not be exempted. so why should i care...
Went to many places with my dear huiling... from orchard to dohby all the way to cityhall... we bought those lil' cuties and bras! and surprisingly, the 5 dollars we spent on KFC each, had make our stomach bloated for hours... Bought 5 bottles of hair dyes, one for my mum, my auntie and 3 for my cousin, coz she got a long long hair and want to highlight her hair too.
I've got my Ibook... i noe it muz be nice.. i will try my best to learn machkintosh... i will!!
Ever since i got into this school, i felt that i'm no longer motivated to study... People in SMU really play hard and study hard.. but for me.. i juz wan to rest hard.. i kept sleeping and sleeping.. Once, someone asked me why i like to sleep so much. The reason being, I'm able to spend time with ppl who i can't be with when i'm awake.. It's only through my dreams, i see them, i talk to them and i feel them.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Went to watch 40 years old virgin with brenda.. the show was quite nice.. except for the deafening laughters coming from my left side... anyway.... it is nice...
Had a great arguement with him.. Wondering why men juz can't understand girls and why i juz dun understand him... I hated to have arguements with him.. coz i'm alwayz the one ended up crying.. Though i'm the one trying to hard to pin point to him why i get so angry.. but in the end.. i'm the one getting hurt... After telling him the Whys and Whats... I realised... how little we knoe abt each other even after so many years... It is a cruel fact for me to face.. coz.. i really tot.. we love each other juz the way we are... and not appearance.. but apparantly.. I'm wrong.
As arguements went on... i'm feeling more and more tired... tired of arguing.. tired of explaining.. and even tired of crying... i wanted no more.. all these unhappiness, tears and anger... I wanted so much to let things go.. free myself from all these emotional pain... but somehow.. i felt even more pain.. when i tell myself.. it's time to let go...
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Looked out of my window.. watching kids in the playground, laughing, cheering and jeering. It was then i realise how lonely and cold my room is.. lacking the laughters and fun. I woke up at 330pm.. Got to know that he had went to study... haiz.. and me.. i'm alone at home... watching the tv, looking into the computer..
I wanted a enjoyable sunday.. i hate to be alone during sundae.. everyone has gone out.. my auntie, my cousins, my nephew, my nieces and even my brother... yet i'm still here.. alone here.. to tell myself how lonely i am..
My first mid term in smu... and it sux... i studied what i suppose to.. but in accountings... it is hard to gauge your marks unless the prof gave u the ans to them. hmm.. i can said that i did my best... hoping it will turn out well.. if not it will juz demoralise me further..
Borrowed the vampire 3 vcds... and i finished them.. in like 5 hours in a roll... hm.. so happy that i'm having my term break.. not bad not bad.. feel so nice...
However.. due to the serious lack of sleep last night... i'm feeling drowsy and sleepy... goin to knock out soon... juz waiting for my hair to dry.... eyes are closing.. *Yawns*
Friday, October 07, 2005
I woke up by his call... Looked at the clock.. OoH... It's already 130.. I didn't realized how long I've slept till my mum came in to check if I'm dead..
Finally I woke up at ard 2.40pm... counted the no. of hours I've slept... hmm.. It's 16 and closed to 17 hours.. But I'm still feeling sleepy now... Came online to d/l all my notes and solutions to my homework.. Trying to convince the rusty and stubborn brain to study and absorb... I'm really losing my motivation to study... Those reasons i've came up are not strong enough to act as a motivator.
Anyway... missed the exemption talk todae... brenda din go too.. she told me that she had juz received a parcel from her american bf.. and she was so surprised that he got him a tiffany & co. heart necklace... she's so touched.. hmm.. wondered if she cried.. i guess so lahz.. haha... Feel so happy for her to have such a romantic and thoughtful boyfriend..
Perhaps besides feeling happy for her.. i envy her too.. for receiving such romantic present and surprise... It is not the present that makes a girl touched.. is the effort and thought that counts...
Shall get back to study then....
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
i back at home.. tired and worn out.. not exactly hoping to get into sleep.. I skipped my Statistic class.. i really too sick to go.. haiz.. I hasn't been sleeping well for 2 nights... hmm or rather for one night and didn't sleep last nite...
Emails after emails.. quarrels after quarrels he still dun understand... after explaining so many times to him... he still find i'm kicking a fuss out of nothing.. i'm angry, frustrated... hoping to juz get myself a woman instead.. coz they do understand gers better... at the very least.. they are sensitive and are there when u need them...
Attended yesterdae's LTB... i totally agree with my prof that in a course of communication, men tend to read the information side of the message and neglected the emotional side of it.. yesh.... why can't guys be a bit more smarter and read in between lines, spending abit more time to understand girls... So what the book wrote is true: man are from mars, women are from venus.
He is not understanding me and vice versa... he has no idea of what i'm doin and i've no idea what he's doin... if this kind of situation continues.. are we still considered couple? I often reflect on sth.. where were he at those times when i need him most.. and why can he be there for other ppl when they need him... What am i to him then? juz someone whom has a name of girlfriend.. or really someone he treasures and hold so closely to his heart... I hate to have that kind of thinking.. but it seems to me.. I need to face up with life.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
hm... the format of this thing is not getting better... anyway.. todae.. had my first dae of the fund raising thingy... hmm.. quite okie.. and eugene was my first generous customer... Was quite pissed this morning regarding some conflicts which was brought up in today's lesson.. actually i wanted to write very mean words such as tactless, such as self-centered and selfish... in the end i didn't lahz... haha... but she really give very lame excuses and in the end saying that we din do things efficiently... oh well... at least we are effective... i things i rather do things effectively than efficiently without quality.
Perhaps we are realli not task oriented enough... coz we are more concern abt how we get along haha... anyway... things got quite fine lahz.... haiz... Adrian hasn't called me yet... he's goin to have quiz again.. haiz haiz haiz... I wondered whats happening to me.. i hasn't been having my meals... i juz had one sandwich.. and now.. i'm hungry lahz... but lazy to get food..
I guess i better stop typing.. coz i can't type well without my long nails... Argh... i regretted cutting my nails
haiz... my this blog is infected with virus i think... the format is distorted... so unable to see prperly..... anyway... there's this girl in my LTB... who i wanted to strangle her.. everyone has sth on tomolo morning... so i'm left with her to set up the booth for fund raising... and i asked her if she can meet me at 1100... she told me that if nothing goes wrong she can reach latest by 12... i asked her for a definite time... and she can be so lame that she replied: well, it all depends as i need to see what time i wake up, what time the bus come and the traffic... wah kaoz!!! i live in singapore lor... dun try to cook up lame excuses... so damn angry with her... anyway... in the end i realli ask her for a definite time and she told me 1130.. let's see what time she will reach...
Saturday, October 01, 2005
Hmm.. i was goin to write abt how sway i am that dae when the blog juz failed me... the page juz cannot be displayed... hmm.. and now... i'm too lazy to fill up all those details... Anyway... i have a clam's eye now... swollen and painful... haiz..
Argh... i still need to finish up my report... there's 1500 more words to go... how how how...
Juz had my most hated food... papaya.. feel so disgusted... haiz...
