Dainty Diva
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Happy new year!! All the best for Year 2007 and wish everyone love, happiness and Joy.. =)
Thank you yuling and hanwei.. =) i simply love it..
Though we din manage to get together often, we din talk on phone as much, you all are still on my mind.. *promise* Thanx for the surprise.. I really love it.. Thank YOU... hhehee...
SOmetimes I simply love old friends as we can juz talk about everything under the sun and the feeling is just like before.. We shall meet up more often... =) thank you!!!
Friday, December 29, 2006
Year 2006 is going to end and i really can't wait for this horrible year to end. 2006 has been a painful, sucky, terrible and torturing year for me.
At the beginning of 2006, i tot everything started well as i first got together with louis. However, things started to change. The lost of weiling, the starting with my eyes problem, my jaw problem... everything juz came together. Unfortunate events happened one after another, many of which dragged over a long period of time, even till today.
I started to drift away from who I were, to the low confidence freak who seek to hide away in one corner. Things started to get hectic when the first semester of Year 2 started. It was a terrible nightmare which I lost control of what was happening around me. The things that were happening were just so wrong, but i failed to take corrective actions.
Just when i tot this semester had finally ended and i could enjoy the last few days of my year 2006. My orthodontist want me to decide if i would want to go for my jaw surgery. There are 2 choices.
1. Do the jaw surgery and remove 2 wisdom tooth, 2 premolar. Side effects: Temporary/ permanent numbness on my cheek. It could lead to relapse of jaw degeneration. The possibility of that is unknown.
2. Out on the braces as per normal. Remove 2 wisdom tooth, 4 premolar. Side effects: affect my speech due to the even smaller space available for my tongue to move around.
I dunno which way to choose but i really hope to correct my jaw problem as it really did affect my speech. I'm worried and afraid of surgery. Imagine how people put me on drip and push me into the operating theatre. IT IS SCARY.
I need to decide by this weekend.... Which means I have 3 days to think over it. Life is all about choices, but what if i made the wrong one... I can't possibly rewind and replay. This is tough... and i juz hope to be a normal person...
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Merry Christmas everyone.. =)
Time flew and now it's christmas. I've been going down to orchard to get some "feel" of the festive season. Louis & I were practically inching along the Orchard Road!! Nothing much for me to buy with my almost-empty bank account but those sales are really tempting. The word "SALES" were big and clear in every shop and I can say, people are generally more willing to spend during the christmas.
Well... I'm so sick of empty bank account and i'm so determined to find one part time job which allow me to work almost like a full timer. I need the cash, i need the money.. I've realised that ever since i've stopped work, I've become more and more lazy, my confidence level plunged all the way down. Now, i'm juz a stupid person who is afraid of everything. I used to love driving and feel that it's juz so easy. The first time i sat into the car, i could drive the car easily. Now, I'm so afraid of holding the steering wheel with the tester sitting right next to me. I'm sooooo stupid. I din realise when the change started but I could feel that i've lost my confidence in everything. I juz feel that i'm full of weaknesses with no strengths to worth mentioning. That's crap, I'm now in search for my confidence and I've decided to go for the operation to improve my profile, hopefully it would boost my confidence level too. I couldn't pronounce things properly and sometimes even stutter. My lower jaw is really giving me trouble as my tongue has insufficient space to work with. I hate ppl making fun of my speech and louis alwayz like to tease me on that.. I hate THAT.. =)
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
i guess i can juz sit back and relax for the rest of my smu life, simply because there is nothing to pin hopes on. This semester result really pull me down or rather push me down the cliff. =_= Forget it.. what done cannot be undone.
I'm crossing my fingers... better not rain big big on my big day.. if not i think i will die ugly ugly..
Dun feel like going online for the past week and i think this will carry on for quite some time. Sucky mood.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
I've phobia for driving.. i juz can't do it when i'm at the cross road junction... =| My instructor told me either i keep learning till i'm ready, or i can forget about driving. He said that i will keep changing my test date and the phobia will keep building up.. Crap... I've lost all my confidence in things. I need them back..
Saturday, December 16, 2006
changed my blogskin for a change of luck.. hope this works.. haha...
Internet is too bored for me and there's really nothing for me to do online. So, nowadays, i would juz stay offline and listen to music. My driving test is really coming soon which really freak me out. I duno why but i am more afraid this time than the first. I really wan to get that bloody license and stop going for my driving lesson. It is so torturing to rush here and there juz for an hour of lesson. Oh, now that i mention abt my Tp, i realise i got to pass my dear bren the basic and advance theory books, as well as those winter clothes she lent me.
My dear bren.. give me another few more days, i promise i will hand them back to u... =X
My eyes are getting bad to worse, therefore my dear louis is giving me a stern warning to see the doctor soon. Haiz..there goes my money.. goddd... can my eyes juz stop torturing me...
Enough of the whining.. time for me to get back to my tv. =|
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Passed huiling that cardigan.. hope she really like it.. haha... It's red and she said she got fetish for red nowadays.. telepathy.. hahaha... I love rusty friend...
Came back from hongkong.. Hongkong was quite fun but things there are winter clothing so there's not much stuff to buy.. nevertheless, it was a nice time spent with peipei, andy and my dear. Although we are overseas, dear has been logging online to check his results. While he was checking his result, i'm praying hard that my results are not release.
Got back most of the results.. and they are like shit... forget it.. there's no point for me to cry over spilled milk. I never noe how damaging a C was until yesterday when i calculated my gpa.. i'm too tired to think, so juz let it be.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Hong Kong time!!!! hehehe.... here i come!!!!
Monday, December 04, 2006
finished my exams and now i have to complete my last report... AND one daamn bloody video that i really regret for not objecting to the idea.... Now i guess my december hols is gone as many of the days will be dedicated to filming and shit. I'm so tired!!!!
Every night when i feel really tired, i hop onto my bed, thinking that i will drift into slumber-land, but often or not, this is not the case. My insomnia is back and i juz couldn't get to sleep no matter how tired I am. Last nite, i was so tired that i could declare myself brain dead, but i juz couldn't sleep. I've got no choice but to get out of my bed and started typing for my report. I really wonder i couldn't sleep due to the tummyache or insomnia, but both are just as bad.
I'm in super duper foul mood now. Maybe it's PMS but maybe i'm juz getting pissed over things... forget it, he wun read this anyway.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
I'm seriously low batt.... critically low batt and surviving on caffeine... i guess i really got wait for my exam to end before my insomnia will leave me alone. I'm so pek chek now.. i'm tired but i tried to take a short rest but my brain juz refuse to hibernate for 10 mins. Dunno what's wrong with it.
No time to waste.. i bettter start clearing those readings i have to read for tomolo's exam as i think my 4hours of sleep last nite will not last me for long.
This is helll..... I dunno why i call it hell and i dunno whats wrong with smu that make it so sucky and scary. It's the experience. U got to experience it, to know it's scary, cold and ruthless..
Friday, December 01, 2006
I'm rushing thru articles after articles.. trying to update myself about the technological changes in this world... Aiyo... this is neverending.. i'm reading it like a storybook... after reading for like 3 hours, i only manage to clear those word doc files for week 9. i still got to rush thru those PDF files.. and readings for week 10 and 11!!!!!
Okie.. enough of complains..time for me to get back to my readings.. what a nice compilation of bedtime stories. They never fail to make me yawn. =|
