Dainty Diva
Saturday, October 28, 2006
All of the sudden, it juz strikes me.. I miss you...
I'm smiling when i'm watching the video... esp when you say that u are very happy because u have us... =)
Love you ger.. Hope you are getting on well..
Thursday, October 26, 2006
OOOh noOooo...
i dun dare to see what's coming up the next threee weeks!!1 torturing.. argh...!!! core modules.. are really means hardcore projects and stress.. damn.. i can't figure out whats wrong with the finance lesson.. i dun understand a single thing.. NYSE.. a term which we should be familiar with, but took me and bren quite sometime before we "Orhhh... the new york stock exchange!" =_=""" there are sths which can't be forced.. no interest means no interest,.. hahaa..
Today one case study and presentation down.. whats coming up is 2 tests, 4 major projects reports, 5 presentation, 1 individual report, 1 term paper, 1 assignment, 1 end of term report for LTM... all in these coming 3 to 4 weeks... HOW EXCITING.... damn...
DIsgusted... truly disgusted... ArGhh....
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
for the past few days and weeks, i'm missing her more than any other day.. i dunno why.. All of the sudden, i'm shut off from what's happening ard me... and all i could see before me are those images of us..
Her famous "black bird tee shirt", how she got check when we enter the pool places, her laughter.. and her unique way of scratching her nose...
Fond memories, they shall be, and always will be...
Monday, October 23, 2006
Wonder how the situation it would be when i've got the machine/box that was shown in the movie. I juz need to clone 4 of ME. One good in CAT, the other good in FINANCE, then one for marketing... Everyone of me is specialized in one area. and da dang!! I got my good results... ahhaa.. it wouldn't be too bad for louis either, as he will have 4 gfs.. hahhaaa...
I'm suffering from head damage i think... =|
Watched the movie prestige over the weekend and indeed it is a very very nice show.. with nice plot and settings and really got to praise the script writer for that wise twist at the end of the story.. clap clap... both me and louis strongly agree that this is a very nicely plot out movie!!
Another 5 weeks.. before my final exam.. and then i get to seee the christmas.. will i get a white christmas this year.. haiz.. fat hopee.... But i really need to go unwind during the 3 weeks hols before i start my another stage in the hellll...
I'm alwayz hungry... many ppl are amazed by the no. of meals i have each day and how i keep wanting more food... even louis was commenting that i'm alwayz hungry and can't stop eating...
But nahz.. i dun eat very full for each meal. i juz keep it a 70% full and i munch on things from time to time.. I have alwayz been like htat since young.. tibits after dinner, ice cream before dinner.. i'm a weird child.. i kept on munching on food like a baby whose teeth are starting to grow... I'm a old baby...
Friday, October 20, 2006
I'm sooooo tired... i juz need a day for myself.. just a day will do..
the next few weeks will be like hell and i really can't wait for christmas to come.. =|
Thursday, October 19, 2006
I can't be bothered anymore.. concealer can't help, and it's not within my control. like my friends said, i can bring a fan. wear a mask or whatever to hide it.. that's the onli few ways that i can do to hide it.. and so.. i can't be bothered anymore..
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
After i got home, i closed my door, locked my door... TOld my mum that i am tired and please DND..
On my laptop, on my music and slack on my bed.. building my defensive wall ard myself.. I have my sheep on one side, and a piggy on the other.. Not in the mood to talk, not even opening my mouth.
PMS.. it is not.. Not even near there.. Juz feel tat things ard me are not within my control.. everything is in a mess... I need a rest, before i can start to get back on the track... i can't wait to get my degree and get out of SMU...
Monday, October 16, 2006
Now i noe why my face is seriously blue blacked... coz.. the dentist stitched up my wound and then ran the stitches thru my cheek flesh and then out to tie a knot on my second last tooth.. Now i finally understand why my face got blue black and why it is so swollen and painful... the stitches is so disgusting.. i want to get it remove... ASAP...
The blue black is getting better and i got so sad over my face as everyone on the street seeems to be staring at my huge blueblack. hahaa... in order to make me happier, Louis keep telling me to get a concealer and even bought me one.. so i have a concealer now..
The haze is deadly manz.. it cause my sinus to act up and trigger my asthma.. i hasn't got my asthma for like 4 years? wah kaoz.. how powerful... i was sneezing and sneezing till i can't catch my breathe... well well.. =|
Saturday, October 14, 2006
I can't believe the dentist did this to me... I looked like i was bashed up BADLY...
It really look like those photo on chinese newspaper gossiping who kena beaten up and complaining how painful it was... AIYO.. really look like one of those pics... =_=""
This semester is so demoralizing. I noe my finance is like shit, so i've put in extra effort to save it from lousy grades but failed. I dunno whats wrong with me. I tried hard, but i dun see the results. Neither expectancy nor equity theory works.
勤能补拙。从我懂事以来，我深新信老师所说的“勤能补拙”。因此，我走进了大学学俯，但我在这儿迷失了方向。我所深信的词语失信于我，令我失去重心。即使成绩差强人意，我是真的劲力了，也没什么好后悔的。
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
i went for the operation to extract both wisdom tooth on my right side... PAINFUL.. and my face is super duper bloated.. the nurse and doc told me is because of the gauze.. but hor.. when i got home.. i took out the gauze.. and i see NO diff.. it is as bloated as when the gauze is inside... =_=""
I brought my two toothy home!! hahahaa... let me show u my bloated face!!
Can u all see the blue black in the photo below.. i dun think sooo...
And lastly my tooooth...
can u all the white things ard the tooth.. is my gum.... hahaa.. pain pain... hmm.... time for me to do my projects... =)
It has been bleeding for the past 6 hours... when will it totally stop... =_=""
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Finally went for the bone scan and it cost me 540 bucks.. haiz.. and my poorr louis went to NUH with me at 8.40 and waited for me till like 3.15... haiz.. thankew deeear..
I tot tat the bone sccan will be like the normal xray which u juz change, go into the room, less than 1 min, it's done.. But for the scan, that's not the case. First i got to enter the room, then she did an initial scan for me. Then, she injected some fluid into my body and she got me to come back at 2pm for the bone scan. The reason being that she need the fluid to seep into the bone before they can detect it.... the feeeeling is so weird. Instead of those normal injection, she put this tube which is sth like the one meant for drawing out the blood, then she warned me that she goin to pour in water into my body.... Woooah.... scary... can feel in goin into my blood stream...
I think she really got vvery poor skill in injecting the thing, coz she made 2 holes on my hand before she manage to find my vein.... small small vein she said.. =_=""
Haiz.. in the end, i missed my proj meeting.. i was joking to bren that maybe after the consultation, i will be able to go home and rest before meeting them... who noes.... haiz... got to extract my wisdom tooth tomolo... and my sweet darling is again goin there with me... he is afraid that i might faint on my way back.. haha... =)
Thursday, October 05, 2006
I'm on bad luck streak!!!! i travelled from place to place to look for things but i juz couldn't get it.. i can even meet with the situation when the store is under renovation... haiz... BAD LUCK!!!
hope lucks will get better, since my tooth is getting better... finance is soooo damn freaking beyond my comprehension.. TIme for me to stop slacking and start working..
My dear Louis has been urging me to start studying... he said "Dear, you should start studying." hmm... i noe.. i noe...
Now, let me rest and i shall start mugging.. i seriously need to mug since my intelligence is way below the average of SMU students.. haiz..
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
CAT mid term is finally over and i really dun wan to go and think abt it anymore.. i noe i will die till quite ugly.. but at least it is over... shitty question and ambiguous question.. I HAD ENOUGH..
CAT is over, now i see finance crawling towards me.. one after another.. but i'm glad it is one AFTER another not all at the same time.. my poor poor wisdom tooth is still aching.. i am determine to get rid of it after my monday consultation with the specialist. At least i got time to rest after extracting it...
After mid terms, will be projects dateline and after projects will be Exams.. after exams will be christmas!! i can't wait for christmas to come..
I noe i can survive.. coz i'm already half way thru this shit.. soon, i will be able to flush it off clean!!
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
He is GOD... i'm so amazed!!!! take a goood and close look at the video!!
IMPRESSIVE
Sunday, October 01, 2006
I was fast asleep on the cozy bed when i saw her walking towards me. The same smile she wore, my name she called out. I smiled at her and the next thing i did was to hug her in my arms... TIme flies.. I told her.. She gave me a pat on my shoulder as she said "Work hard". I dun remember what happened next, but i found myself crying when i woke up from the dream. It was a dream, she will never be back... I missed her very much today, i dunno why. I can't help but to continue dazing and reminiscing the old poly days. Memories are sweet, they will alwayz be..
I smiled coz i'm really happy to see her. It was sweet, but it is painful. I tried to get back to sleep, but everytime i close my eyes, i saw her on the hospital bed.. painful..
Mooncake festival is just round the corner, the day which i used to enjoy the most as it had been a happy family gathering for me. But things changed, no more laughter, only cries. It has been 6 years since he left us.. 6 long years.
One after another. When will it be my turn? If i'm really destined to go thru so much pain and different illness, why not juz let me go... I really wonder if things would be better if I wasn't even born in the first place. At least, my parents and people ard me won't be worrying if my organs and jaw are functioning well... I juz wan to be normal.. leading a normal life..
*** Feeeling blue, feeling down...
