Dainty Diva
Friday, December 29, 2006
Year 2006 is going to end and i really can't wait for this horrible year to end. 2006 has been a painful, sucky, terrible and torturing year for me.
At the beginning of 2006, i tot everything started well as i first got together with louis. However, things started to change. The lost of weiling, the starting with my eyes problem, my jaw problem... everything juz came together. Unfortunate events happened one after another, many of which dragged over a long period of time, even till today.
I started to drift away from who I were, to the low confidence freak who seek to hide away in one corner. Things started to get hectic when the first semester of Year 2 started. It was a terrible nightmare which I lost control of what was happening around me. The things that were happening were just so wrong, but i failed to take corrective actions.
Just when i tot this semester had finally ended and i could enjoy the last few days of my year 2006. My orthodontist want me to decide if i would want to go for my jaw surgery. There are 2 choices.
1. Do the jaw surgery and remove 2 wisdom tooth, 2 premolar. Side effects: Temporary/ permanent numbness on my cheek. It could lead to relapse of jaw degeneration. The possibility of that is unknown.
2. Out on the braces as per normal. Remove 2 wisdom tooth, 4 premolar. Side effects: affect my speech due to the even smaller space available for my tongue to move around.
I dunno which way to choose but i really hope to correct my jaw problem as it really did affect my speech. I'm worried and afraid of surgery. Imagine how people put me on drip and push me into the operating theatre. IT IS SCARY.
I need to decide by this weekend.... Which means I have 3 days to think over it. Life is all about choices, but what if i made the wrong one... I can't possibly rewind and replay. This is tough... and i juz hope to be a normal person...
