Dainty Diva
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Merry Christmas everyone.. =)
Time flew and now it's christmas. I've been going down to orchard to get some "feel" of the festive season. Louis & I were practically inching along the Orchard Road!! Nothing much for me to buy with my almost-empty bank account but those sales are really tempting. The word "SALES" were big and clear in every shop and I can say, people are generally more willing to spend during the christmas.
Well... I'm so sick of empty bank account and i'm so determined to find one part time job which allow me to work almost like a full timer. I need the cash, i need the money.. I've realised that ever since i've stopped work, I've become more and more lazy, my confidence level plunged all the way down. Now, i'm juz a stupid person who is afraid of everything. I used to love driving and feel that it's juz so easy. The first time i sat into the car, i could drive the car easily. Now, I'm so afraid of holding the steering wheel with the tester sitting right next to me. I'm sooooo stupid. I din realise when the change started but I could feel that i've lost my confidence in everything. I juz feel that i'm full of weaknesses with no strengths to worth mentioning. That's crap, I'm now in search for my confidence and I've decided to go for the operation to improve my profile, hopefully it would boost my confidence level too. I couldn't pronounce things properly and sometimes even stutter. My lower jaw is really giving me trouble as my tongue has insufficient space to work with. I hate ppl making fun of my speech and louis alwayz like to tease me on that.. I hate THAT.. =)
