Dainty Diva
Sunday, October 01, 2006
I was fast asleep on the cozy bed when i saw her walking towards me. The same smile she wore, my name she called out. I smiled at her and the next thing i did was to hug her in my arms... TIme flies.. I told her.. She gave me a pat on my shoulder as she said "Work hard". I dun remember what happened next, but i found myself crying when i woke up from the dream. It was a dream, she will never be back... I missed her very much today, i dunno why. I can't help but to continue dazing and reminiscing the old poly days. Memories are sweet, they will alwayz be..
I smiled coz i'm really happy to see her. It was sweet, but it is painful. I tried to get back to sleep, but everytime i close my eyes, i saw her on the hospital bed.. painful..
Mooncake festival is just round the corner, the day which i used to enjoy the most as it had been a happy family gathering for me. But things changed, no more laughter, only cries. It has been 6 years since he left us.. 6 long years.
One after another. When will it be my turn? If i'm really destined to go thru so much pain and different illness, why not juz let me go... I really wonder if things would be better if I wasn't even born in the first place. At least, my parents and people ard me won't be worrying if my organs and jaw are functioning well... I juz wan to be normal.. leading a normal life..
*** Feeeling blue, feeling down...
