Dainty Diva
Saturday, July 01, 2006
I'm sooooo bored... having terrible moodswings...
i've got serious insomnia that i actually got up at 3.30 am to paint my toe nails, looking thru my photo album. I looked at how fat i was when i'm young, to the little lishan who performed on stage, to the nerd lishan who had this dolly fringe in secondary one. As i flipped thru the pages, my face seems getting rounder as each year pass.. hahaa i dunno why!! Then, i saw my secondary class photos, looking at those faces who i had totally lost contact with. Next, porkies... the complete family photo that we took on our tccc outings, joyce's birthday, and several other occasion. I'm missing you, ger.. Could u juz give me a simple yet the happiest birthday gift that i could ever receive? i juz need u to come to my dreams, all i need from u is two words, "happy birthday"...
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Anyway, I cancelled the birthday celebration and i guess i shall spend it with my family bah, since before i complete my invitation, many of my friends mentioned that they cannot make it. I also dun wan to make my other friends feel out of place as my super big family will out number them.. hahaa.. so i shall juz stick to my family.. will get to meet up with them soon i hope. When jolene, weiyi and bren return, i guess we will have a gathering. Then on the 9th, goin to meet porkies and guys, then on the 7th, pretty rach's birthday. Hmm... can meet up with many ppl in fact. So on the 8th, i shall juz spend my birthday with my ultra big family and louis, if he gets an off day on that day.
I alwayz dream to be like a little princess, to have many many ppl celebrating my birthday with me. Like other families, parents will kiss me on my cheeks, wishing me happy birthday, giving me a pat on my head.. None of these things happen before. As I grow older, these dream seems further away, so far away till I actually told myself to wake up.
Which girl doesn't want to be a princess, to stay pretty with a shiny tiara on her head... but i've learnt, fairy tales are never true, at least for me...
