Dainty Diva
Thursday, May 25, 2006
My sky has fallen... it hit me hard on my head.
When i woke up today, i was feeling down... I woke up and stoned for a while and then go back to my bed. I couldn't sleep, i couldn't cheer myself up.. I forced myself to get ready for the appointment i had with huiling.. I looked at the mirror, trying to force a smile, but i couldn't. I looked at the mirror, looked at the disgusting bloated face of mine, the elephant thighs i have, the disgusting big waist i've got... I hate myself..
Went to the orchard road... walked here and there with huiling, trying to find a birthday present.. but i've got no mood to look at them.. When ppl look at me, i stared at them... I became a nasty freak..
went for the facial.. i juz behave as though i was sleeping.. din wan to utter a single word.. i was absolutely feeling depressed... After i finished my facial, it was pouring.. the sky was dark, as though it was falling.. i strolled in the rain, from angelsky to plaza singapura.. i'm like an idiot, i guess i'm an idiot..
It was only 4.15 when i reached PS and i suppose to reach Tanjong pagar at 6.30... well.. I've got to rot, hence i shopped from the basement up to the top level and then from the top to the basement.. i stoned, i rot, i sat down, i sigh... i did all i can.. but time was passing real slowly... I'm juz like a kid who is sitting there aimlessly, trying to find things to do...
Got to tanjong pagar, attended the lamest talk... then i can't wait to get out of the place, so i left the form there and forgot to collect it back. I remember all these things onli when i was sitting at the bench, waiting for my train.... I reluctantly got out of the station and make my way back to the office..
For the whole day, i din eat anything... i merely drink some water and milo... well.. perhaps i will be slim down as well... The whole day is lame.. the whole day is sucky.... arGh!!! i can't wait for the day to end... and i seriously need to work and money...
