Dainty Diva
Sunday, April 23, 2006
very much wanted to sleep.. but i can't get to sleep.. many unlucky stuff happened today... too much for me to bear.. i'm tired... very tired... but i juz can't sleep.. too many things on my mind.. i'm in a guessing game...
1. I've got a deep deep cut on my thumb... the bleeding went on and off since 7pm.. now it started to bleed again...
2. I've got no sales for 3 days... it's not a normal blow... it's a big big blow to me.. and i'm trying hard to accept it.. Once, i'm so proud of myself to say that i'm one of the top sales personnel.. and now this thing happen.. who can understand how i feel? i starting to doubt myself.. doubt my ability and capability. It's something harsh on me.. very very harsh.. I'm still smiling.. but my heart is not...
3. i've got serious and painful cramps... and its something that man never never understand how terrible it can be,... i was having cramps.. and i was on my feet for 7 hours... my feet was on my heels for 7 hours.. and my feet and my cramps came together at the same time for 7 hours... who can understand how it feels... who can understand how it feel when u are feeling very very terrible and yet have to stand up and smile at customers...
4. Had a bad bad day today.. what i looking forward to.. din end happily... after a hard day work.. all i get is more problems and more trouble... how does it feel... it's painful and torturing.. please appreciate what i did.. i tried to bear with all those pain and unhappiness i experienced at work.. i smiled at u, i joked with u.. i did all i can not to show my tiredness and unhappiness.. yet things turned out this way... who will understand how i feel....
who would understand how i feel when all came to me in a day... who on earth will be able to take all these nonsense without tears and whines... i'm tired.. i'm collapsing very soon... mentally and physically....
