Dainty Diva
Saturday, April 08, 2006
back to my home.. but a home which dun seems like a home.. dun feel like a home.. coz no one cares...
I've been eating MAc.. my mum wouldn't care.. she din even bother to make me soup or whatever tonic.. never ever.. since young.. I've been burning midnight oil.. she's juz concern abt her sleep..
I woke up.. looked at the dining table.. its empty.. open up the fridge.. there's nothing.. except for raw vege.. then i took the milk.. wanted to drink it.. once i drank it.. i puked.. coz it's spolit...
i couldn't find food.. so i cooked mee.. as i cooked.. i'm almost crying.. why is my house like that... my mum wouldn't care.. not even when i'm sick or i'm tired.. i tried so hard to think for them.. to earn as much as i can to lessen their burden.. in the end.. i couldn't even get a little warmth from the family..
Now my house is just like a hotel to me.. i can go out as late as i want.. juz be back home to sleep... i can be at anywhere and everywhere.. smiling and happy... but not at home.. coz i'm not loved... i'm not cared for...
Now now.. when it's exam period.. he couldn't care much too.. coz he is busy... so i should seek shelter under my brenda.. i hate my home.. i hate everything...
