Dainty Diva
Friday, March 03, 2006
got back my law paper today... was really disappointed with myself.. with my grades.. i expect my results to be bad but not a B-.. A b- is badly enough to pull all my GPA down... i guess i really need to study now.. I'm dumb by nature.. thats what my parents alwayz told me.. when ppl study for 1 hour to get a pass grade, i need 2.. i'm alwayz behind ppl.. i alwayz need to put in more effort to get what i want.. Now i realised what my parents have been telling me is true.. me and my brother.. both shared the same genes.. we have stupidity in us.. juz that in poly, i worked harder than ever to get good grades.. and now it seems i'm the dumbest of all people in SMU..
I really need to study.. i've been spending too much time idling and thinking of things.. when i'm studying, i can't focus.. i've lost my direction and goals... now it's time i find them all back.. to study hard.. Perhaps it's time for me to stop thinking why things happened.. why is life so unfair.. Instead i should channel all my attention to how to make life fair for me.. How to stop things from happening..
It's a fact that she's gone.. perhaps i should juz knock some sense into myself to strive hard for my studies.. perhaps in this way, i might be able to fulfill some of her dreams for her.. to graduate with my honors..
**I'm really screwed this semester.. haiz.. i need more luck than ever...
