Dainty Diva
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
A bad fall woke me up.. I've realised that i'm not studying and concentrating ever since that incident...
I've got 1.25marks for my MA test... it is over 15marks and i've got 1.25 markz.. i couldn't believe myself.. not even my history or Amaths test back in sec sch got this kind of grades before.. I'm getting such a grade now for sth which i've studied and aced in... I almost broke down... I'm alwayz grades-driven.. A Low grade is enough to depress me.. let alone a fail grade...
It seems that i should get on with my studies.. i should be studying hard.. at least to do something for me and weiling.. to fulfil her dream as well as mine... i will study hard... and i mean it.. i will revert back to the old me.. who stay at home and study all day long... I hate myself for that sudden change when i got into SMU.. i hate myself for dwelling and brooding over things which can't be changed...
This time.. i noe i've fallen.. it hurts me too much that i realised.. it's time for me to let go...
Saw joyce's OD, it seems that she's not okie.. everything seems to be too sudden for her to accept... Ger.. it's time for you to let go too.. She won't want to see u like that too... We will still be porky, gathering and birthday celebrations will still be as usual... Don't lose us too... and we can't lose u too.. Please dun go back to the old joyce.. u had went thru a hard time trying to get out of that world remember? Please dun go back into it again... We love u, joyce.. =)
