Dainty Diva
Monday, February 27, 2006
after so long... after a long wait.. finally she appeared in my dreeams... i woke up at 2pm.. bid weiling goodbye...
In the dream.. we were having a birthday celebration.. if i'm not wrong, it was for jiayi.. this time.. sandra, weiling, joyce, jiayi and I were there.. it's after my school and after jiayi's and sandra's work.. everything is as usual... We sat in this small romantic room.. in the room, we were as usual, luffing and teasing each other.. I remembered that when i reached the restaurant, they had they dinner, so left with me and sandra.. weiling keep telling me to order those cakes, dun order those main course.. cute her.. i guess she muz have wanted some..
This time.. joyce was holding her tight, or rather hugging her.. we were all aware that she's gone.. the feeling is just so weird.. in the dreams, everything seems real. It's just like a get together after she's gone.. For each birthday celebration, we will have a cake. this time it's special.. my dear weiling love chocolate cake.. while the others love cheese cake.. for this time the cake speical: half chocolate and half cheese.. it's made in such a way that it's beautiful.... this time.. the candle is whilte.. i've no idea why two candles are white.. Weiling lighted up the candles, pushed it to me and tell me to blow... this is after jiayi had blowed the first time round... then i asked her why muz i blow the candles when i'm not the birthday girl... she smiled and tell me to blow off the candles... she said that she will blow one, i will blow the other... then i followed her instructions.. after that she smiled to me.. as though she's giving me early birthday wishes...
After everything, we were sitting down, chatting as usual when she showed us photos and videos. She said that that's where she's living.. but i held those photos in my hand, everything is dark.. very dark.. i couldn't figure out who were in the photos.. but i could see the doors of the apartments. then there was this little girl.. i dunno who is she.. ialso dun remembered what weiling said.. As for the video.. In the video, everyone was very happily, singing KTV, playing cards, partying.. everything.. could hear laughters etc.. she kept telling us that she is happy and very happy indeed.. yes.. i noe she's happy.. and we are happy for her too.. In the dreams, there's not tears no cries, only laughters and smiles.
I dunno how my dream ended.. but somehow i juz woke up.. After i woke up.. i cried... heartache..
No weiling.. i'm telling u now and i'm serious... i dun accept early birthday wishes.. i wan u to find me again.. i want u to say "happy birthday" to me.. i need nothing more but the 2 words..
haiz... time for school....
