Dainty Diva
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
he's forever studying studying and studying... to the extend that he can't even spend a mere 5 mins talking to me... how should i feel... happy that he actually worked hard.. or sad.. that i'm juz a nobody to him. All i can do is to wait by my phone. hoping that it will ring in the next second.. hoping that.. he can juz give me a call.. talk to me.. but things are not happening.. and i'm dreaming...
Public holidays... meant to be happy.. joyful, enjoyable day.. but i'm sad.. i need to spend it in school... and when i'm back from sch.. i'm alone.. everyone in my family will be in JB.. will even stay overnite there... While he.. will be muggling.. forever and forever.. perhaps.. my name.. wun even flash past his mind. I'm selfish.. too selfish that I merely hoping to feel he's there for me.. even if it for juz that short 5 mins.. But.. things are not happening..
I'm truly sad.. i felt.. really lonely.. really sad.. no one is there to listen to me.. all i can feel is me and only me.. Not one else is there.. I'm trapped.. trapped in the selfish heart of mine..
