Dainty Diva
Monday, November 21, 2005
After the supper yesterday... i hibernated... sleeping and sleeping... with a slight fever.. with a slight sore throat.. i forced myself to wake up at 1. after brushing my teeth.. i lay on my bed.. wanting to go bath then see doc before i go sch.. yet.. I'm in my lala land... when i woke up.. it's already 3.20... too late... called brenda to do the peer evaluation for me.. but she's at home too.. then called louis.. haha.. he's so kind to do it for me.. so many things to write... such as: what is my role, what is my grp members role.. those grades all those crap.. thanx louis arhz...
Anyway.. I'm hungry... i wanted to eat chee cheong fun... those with prawns one... haiz... tonite.. will act as a puppet again.. i really pray.. to sit with my cousins.. All along in other wedding dinners.. all aunties and uncles will gather in 2 tables.. and all cousins gather in the other 4 tables... haha.. hmm.. i guess everyone will be asking me when i'm goin to get married... haiz..
it's too far for me to think.. it's too scary to think.. coz i dun even noe what the future will be like. I dun wan the future to be what i'm now... i juz need someone who care for me and put effort in the relationship.. but it seems so difficult... If the future were to be similar to today's .. i would rather stay single and be a spinster.. coz.. it's too sad and miserable.. I'm too tired.. too hurt..
I wonder if i really owe him too much in my past lives that i need to repay him in this manner.. or i'm fated not to have a loving bf... Will my future live be like cinderella... living happily with her prince...
