Dainty Diva
Sunday, September 11, 2005
I've this nightmare... which Adrian said is a dream as it didn't involve vampires and stuff like that... but this is worse than that... Everything seems so real... I could feel the pain... I could feel the sadness... despite it's juz a dream... Let me relate my dream...
It was in the night, when i was playing my warrior... while Melissa, tallboy, micheal and him was online... While i was talking to mel, i saw Adrian saying, goodnight my dear... I'm sure he is not saying to me... and i dunno who is he talkin to as he is using the buddy chat and the ger isn't in my buddy list... I panic... i was heartbroken.. i can feel the pain.. i could feel the anxiety..
I called him.. he picked up the call... i asked him abt who is the "dear" he talked to... he said it was a ger he knew over maple story... I continued by askin why he address her dear.. he told me that he love the ger... He wanted to break up with me... He alwayz wanted to tell me but dunno how to tell me.. I asked him if i know the ger... He replied me saying that not long before he had forwarded a mail to me.. and that mail was sent to him by the girl name yiling... He said that she was gentle.. she was sweet and cute.. and he's really really happy when he's with her...
I was devastated... i asked him if this few years relationship really means nothing to him.. he juz replied coldly "it isn't how long the realtionship is.. Is whether there's happiness..." Upon hearing that, i was crying like hell... I still remember i asked him a crucial question.. Are you really happy with her? Does she know abt it? He said he had never been so happy... and he said that she knows... Before hanging up the phone.. i said.. i wish u all the best then...
Argh... Why i have this kind of dream.. the worse thing is that i remember every little thing.. even the girl's name... Does this shows that he will eventually leave me one day or what... My confidence in the relationship is shaken.. I've messaged him telling him all that.. but he din reply.. Perhaps he dun even bother... I'm waiting for the reply..
...I'm still Waiting...
