Dainty Diva
Monday, September 12, 2005
Dear all... I'm still in school library... look at the time.... I'm stuck in sch earlier on as it is raining so heavily... or rather a thunderstorm.. i couldn't get to the MRT nor the Bus stop... Nor can i get a cab... There is no shelter for me to stand under to wait for a cab...
I'm in formal wear with my laptop and heavy textbook... i'm so stranded... i really have no choice but to called him to ask if he can come to pick me up... When he picked up the call, i can sense the frustration and reluctance... i gave up... i dun want to tok anymore... i dun wan to cry in front of my friends..
Went to the library... sat down.. surf the net... burying my head in that cubicle so that no one can see what my face is like... no one can see my teary and red eyes... Why should i be so sad... He is studying with a friend.. that's why he can't come... perhaps he is realli stressed up.. perhaps he is realli tired... perhaps he dun wan to leave his friend behind... perhaps he can't get to his car as well as it is realli raining heavily...
Perhaps.. perhaps perhapz... i'm trying to find excuses for me not to be sad... But.. come to think abt it... how many times have i asked him to fetch me home... how many times have i really have no choice but to call him to travel to pick me up... Why he can help his frien out by fetching her and her friends even when he is sleeping in the late night... Why.. Why can he be such a great help to a frien and not gerfriend... I'm trying hard to find excuses.. i'm trying to make myself feels better...
I really thought he will call and ask how am i... have i got home.. am i drenched.. but he didn't... 2 hours plus have past.. yet no call no sms... can i ask... what am i to u... Is it that i'm not as impt as her? Scold me paranoid.. scold me for digging out the past...scold whatever u wan... but before u open ur mouth to say me... please reflect on the way u treated me...
I've tried all wayz to find excuses for u.. i've told myself not to think so much... but i've ran out of excuses.. and i still not convinced...
