Dainty Diva
Friday, August 19, 2005
it's 5.00am sharp when i was typing away.. trying to get myself onto the bed and sleep...
I realised sth.. this blog.. is no longer the story between me and him.. is more on My story.. trying to vent my anger.. trying to find myself another channel to let my feelings take over me... Life between us had been the same.. quarrels.. shoutings.. teasings.. and even bullies.. As time past.. we spend lesser time on phone.. more time on maple story..
I find myself not telling him anything.. even things which i go complaining and telling huiling.. perhaps.. when things had just happened... i wanted so much to share my joy, unhappiness and sorrow with someone at that particular time.. that's the time he is busy.. After telling someone abt those happenings.. i found myself too tired to start telling another person all over again.. i kept this to my heart.. As time goes.. he knew lesser and lesser of my life.. and.. i found myself.. not wanting to know abt his as well..
I had been a 100% Kpo.. wanted to know every little things such as who he goes out with.. but this time round.. i din wanted to know how has his new class been.. is he able to catch up with his work.. has he made new friends.. None of the things i wanted to know.. it was when his mum ask me.. then i realise how little i knew... Perhaps, i'm used to it.. not wanting and able to know what happened in his camp..
i've learnt not to ask.. i've know how to let go.. i've mastered the way for us to have less conflicts. maybe.. we do not have the time to talk.. maybe.. i'm not interested to noe.. or maybe.. the love between us is no longer as strong as before....
I dunno.. but all i noe.. old friends are realli treasures.. accompanying me thru happiness and sorrow.. She is there when i need her.. her shoulders are there to let me rest.. her tissue is alwayz ready to dry my tears.. but where are u?
