Dainty Diva
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
One dae.. one saturdae nite.. i was alone on my bed.. hugging my pillow.. letting tears to fall.. letting my thoughts to run wild.. in any direction it wish to.. wondering if it is time.. for me to make a decision..
Since we both are unhappy.. i guess we should part.. it will be better.. for the both of us.. to lead a seperate carefree life.. we came together and we parted.. this may be the 3rd time, for the relationship to end.. we have started.. we have ended.. why.. i asked myself.. yet i juz couldn't find an answer... some people define true love as breaking up and patching up again as both of them know that they can't do without the other.. They learnt how to love, care and share, capable of bringing the relationship to a further stage.. be it engagement or marriage.
But for us.. i dunno if thats the real reason.. I'm also dun wish to think... I took up my handphone.. i bear with the pain to msg him 'Let's breakup'.. simple yet it hurts me badly.. but i dunno abt him.. i wanted to off my handphone for the next few daes.. rejecting his call.. avoiding him.. in the end i still picked up his call.. i dunno why...
He gave me promises.. high hopes again.. but i'm afraid of heights.. coz it really hurts and frightening to fall from great height.. feeling hopeles..
He was busy.. he alwayz was.. so am i.. what if both of us are busy.. what if both of us make no effort to continue the relationship.. will it still goes on.. To me.. Love is juz like a car.. it need fuel to run.. it need maintainance to last.. it need love and passion to make sure.. the car is still as beautiful as the first dae it was borned..
= Do you get me? =
