Dainty Diva
Thursday, May 05, 2005
..ate the antibiotics.. vomitted all the things i ate.. saw those bits of hotdogs and bread in the toliet bowl.. eee.. ER XIN.. was realli feeling unwell after the antibiotics.. i guess it's strong for me.. haiz.. called the doc.. he said that he will give me another antibiotics to try.. does that mean that i will have to spend another 50 bucks on the medicine? i realli got no more money left le... Haiz.. in that case i will choose to stay on with my old medicine..
Went for supper with him.. dunno why.. i juz feel so unloved with him.. i juz couldn't help but throwing temper at him.. i really feel that he dun understand me and my situations at all.. the same thing applies to me.. i dun understand and dunno what he has been doin as well.. We din even have proper time to tok on phone.. mondae to fri.. he woke up early.. telling me he was tired.. then sat... he went out with his friends.. Sundae.. he told me he has to work tomolo so he need to sleep early.. so when will u have time to juz listen to me..
As time past.. there are more and more things which i did not tell him.. no chance and no mood to tell him.. things need to be linked from one to another.. i need to tell him many many things.. which i juz refuse to tell him mentally.. I juz couldn't find myself telling him all those things.. i guess there is a communication breakdown between us..
Now.. i juz feel distant.. No more time to be spend alone.. the no of times he went movie with friends exceeded the no of times we went for movie for the whole half year.. so.. are we still known as couple? Sometimes.. when i look into wanqi's diary.. i really envy her.. for all those romantic and quality time they spent together.. staying over at her bf house.. hanging out with her bf friends.. I dun ask for more.. all i wan is juz spend time with him alone.. let me rest in his arms.. let me feel supported.. let me feel loved.. But it is the most difficult thing for him to do..
