Dainty Diva
Saturday, April 23, 2005
which way should i choose.. which route should i take.. wat am i goin to do..
All these had been my troubles.. i am feeling rather low these few weeks... no one noes why.. coz i never mentioned it to anyone. i'm preparing for the worse.. if i din get into SMU... which way should i take then?
Should i go to work.. or should i enter a private uni.. for my situation.. i guess.. i should be working.. i shouldn't be so selfish.. entering into a private uni to get a worthless cert.. i would rather i go out to work to lessen my family burden and to save up for my brother's education. I noe.. i can't be so selfish to throw the burden to my dad.. is too much for them to bear...
If i'm so lucky to get into SMU.. i will have to study 4 years.. this make it worse.. coz.. i will be studying till my brother got out of his 2 years NS.. and he will have to study uni... so... how?? my dad.. he need to rest too.. he had been working too hard.. haiz..
I told my mum.. i goin to work.. dun wish to study anymore.. they were like scolding me.. for giving up my studies.. but did they try to understand why? it is my dreams to get to uni.. to graduate.. how much i wanted to.. yet they juz can't undestand.. U may sae i'm thinking too far.. but.. for my family background.. i have to.. i can't be so selfish...
Now.. wat should i do? should i choose to turn left or right? Can someone please guide me?? I'm lost.. Too lost to make any decision.. coz i noe.. i will be sad and guility for choosing any of the way.. So.. what should i do??
