Dainty Diva
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Lonely me... No more hanwei and jiayi... no more daily chats... no more laughters and jokes... I missed u all!!!!
In contra, I had a bad bad day... with tears and loneliness...
Early in the morning, went to see the doc again... he checked my eyes and said that.. the old wound had recover and noe is another new one... one on each eye... pain.. waited.. had my niece to accompany me outside.. she realli joke with mi, play with me.. consoling me... telling me not to scared... yesh.. thats why i doted on her so much... she's such a darling...
Went in... repeated the whole proces.. pain.. cries and tears.. i cried again... the nurse trying to wipe my tears for me... this time.. i dunno why.. when the doc started to cut.. that cut make blood splash onto my forehead.. haiz... pain.. all i can sae... When i get out of the room.. my niece told me "Mummy and daddy waiting for u downstairs."
My cousin and cousin in law had came to fetch me.. my niece held me so tightly, afraid that i might fall... when got out of the clinic.. my cousin put her arms around me.. holding mi tight.. guiding me to the car.. it had been a long time since she hold mi that way.. on the way back.. my the other cousin called... asking where am i.. he's waiting for me there with the twins... what can i sae.. all i can sae is that.. i'm fortunate.. i'm loved.. by so many people...
Yet.. the one i realli wanted to be with me.. is not with me.. he is busy.. no sms.. no phone call... i'm disappointed.. i'm sad.. i dunno why.. juz hope he can juz be with me.. consoling me.. there to let me feel secured... But... where is he...
