Dainty Diva
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
After days of projects... i'm dying seriously lacked of sleep as well as care... He seems to be busy... In a dae... the only time we tok is in the night after his tv programmes.. yesh.. tat shows how impt i am to him... Every morning and afternoon.. i kept looking at my hp.. hoping that it will juz ring.. i juz hope to get a msg.. to show he still remember me.. he is too busy... thats the reason for my dissapointment each time... But i juz dun understand... why can't he juz give me a call in the evening when he is free.. juz spare some of his tv time on me... a msg will do... is that so difficult??
Each nite at 10.. after his show.. he called... toked for less than 10 mins.. he said he was tired... i juz hate the way he tok to mi over the phone... as time goes... guys are no longer sweet... they are hurting us.. so painful that my heart cries for help... too much for me to bear mentally...
I admit i sound sad.. tired.. over the phone.. i juz feel so stressed up and tired... i juz need some care from him... yet he will juz sae.. " since u busy then i dun disturb u.. bye.." If this is call boyfriend... i guess my boy-friends are much better... at least they listen to me when i need a listening ear..
I'm sick... vomited for afew times within 2 hours... feeling hot and terrible... called him.. he was watching tv... oh ya... no time to tok to me.. told me he was tired... he need sleep... yet...
What can i sae? Anyway.. ralli feeling terrible... went to see a doc... came back he was asleep... i realli hate to have this kind of bf... someone who dun even bother to check out how am i... i had enough... i truely had enough...
Called him he was asleep... good job... some one who dun care for mi dun fit to be my boyfrien...
When he read this message of mine.. can he sense i'm crying?? tears rolling down my cheeks.. heart breaking into pieces.. love is dying... we are drifting...
Perhaps i'm the one asking for too much... but all this isn't the simpliest thing a ger wanted from her bf? Am i asking too much....???
