Dainty Diva
Friday, February 25, 2005
x PAIN x
went to the doc yesterdae again as the infection dun seems to recover but continue spread for my left eye... went there.. the doc was late for almost 40 mins... idiot doc... anyway... got in... the doc inspected and said that i need to go for a minor operation to cut and remove those pus...
i was shocked... first thing came to my mind is the word pain... then the word gross..
Anyway.. th doc said that if i dun go for it... then i will have to wait for very long for it to recover.. or it may not even recover... well... no choice.. i went for it...
Sat on the seat waiting for the doc is the worse thing ever.. i alwayz afraid of the feelin such as something cutting u... called my mum... asked her to bring me home... before i was being operated she was there.. she seems worried... more worried than i am... i knew tat it was juz a small thing lahz.. haha..
The doc was here... then.. he said that he will inject first.. wah kaoz
the injection sux... it hurts... hurt too much that i cried during the operation... then
he turn over my eyelid... and he use sth to poke mi... i dun feel the pain... but i was crying for help deeep in my heart.. haiz.. then i can feel it cutting me.. then he scrap... kaoz!!!!!!! my heart felt pain... real pain... then he goes to the other eye.. wah.. the lower eyelid one.. is much more painful then the one under eyelid...
haiz... i guess the whole thing onli lasted for abt 15 mins... but it is realli called sensory and physical risk... damn... hmm... worse thing is... he onli can operate two... as.. if he were to operate for both under eyelid.. he will have to pad both of my eyes.. then i wn be able to see. then he tell me to go through another one after mine recoer... kaoz.. as if i still dare.. but no choice..
Adrian was not with me... how i wish he is the one who led me home.. he was at home playing his game.. haiz... went home called him... i was timid... i got a fright... i called him... when he picked up the phone i cried... juz couldn't control it nor stop.. he started to worry... haiz... dunno why.. juz feel... he dun seems to care...
Todae... he hasn't called... maybe he's busy... too busy bahz... haiz.. better dun expect too much... if not i will be more disappointed..
* Anyway... after the operation i got deep pretty double eyelid... i also dunno if the scar will go away... haiz
