Dainty Diva
Thursday, January 13, 2005
x Lonely x
Realli so lonely... in the quiet nite.. trying real hard to find that questionnaire but juz can't get hold of it.. i had used up all the keywords.. switching from one to another.. yet i still reap nuthing from it.. It was late.. he hasn't call.. i guess i shan't wait anymore.. i am tired.. He wun noe i'm worried anyway.. He has his buddies, his food, his entertainment and proberly looking at girls now.. who knows...
Project Dateline is approaching.. work are piling up.. stress had came and took over me.. i'm short tempered and unreasonable now... juz need more care and concern from ppl ard mi.. more hugs from the twins.. more laughter from my frienz and classmates..
My asthma seems to be on and off... for a moment.. it was like hell to me... so near to it that i can feel i am stepping into the door that says welcome Lishan as i gasp for my air.. my hands and feet turns cold... my face was as white as a sheet of paper... no one noes that kind of feeling... no one noes how scared i am.. Why not see a doc?
I had alwayz fear goin to docs as i'm afraid.. one fine dae he might juz tell me that there is sth wrong somewhere in my body that he need to open it up to correct for me.. too much for mi to bear.. it's a psychology burden.. U may think i'm weird.. but i'm realli timid.. too timid till i'm so ashamed of myself..
So far for todae... nuthing wrong.. and i hope nuthing will be wrong.. juz let my heartbeat be constant.. let my hands and feet remain warm.. let me feel the air circulating around me.. into my body and out of my nose... in this silent lonely nite...
